I know, I’m very quiet in the last couple of weeks. It feels like I’m blocked, while I have so many idea’s for this blog in my head, some even almost fully worked out. Still, I don’t find the time to write. Suddenly everything seems to be more important than this blog.
Many artists will recognize this, full of ideas but not able to make new art. And sometimes the block is getting bigger when the ideas are getting bigger too. That’s exactly what’s happening to me right now. I have the idea for a very long blog post about 4 levels to fame, which I want to use for the introduction of my new service of Coaching & Consulting. The draft is ready, I only have to make it a bit less technical and a bit more personal. And suddenly it’s more important to clean the room, to install the new boiler in the office kitchenette, to chat with friends, actually everything I can think of is more important than finishing this blog post. And in the mean time I don’t write other post posts either.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” (Marianne Williamson)
I found this quote about a year ago, and was searching for it for a week now until I found it again yesterday evening. It describes exactly what’s going on with me right now. Of course I’m a bit afraid that what I’m planning is not good enough. But I’m far more afraid that it’s really good. Imagine that you use your talents, put your whole person in it, and that the audience can really connect with your art. When it’s really good, it could change your whole life!
How do I deal with change? Is it really what I want? Often I’m afraid for changes, even if it’s for the better. I’ve taken some big steps in my life, like changing school, moving from the country side to a big city, moving to another country, starting to live together with my love and others. After everything was prepared to take the next step, I suddenly got sentimental and didn’t want the change anymore. In the examples above I fortunately did go on despite the fear, and it worked out really well.
So, I will move on, and soon you can expect the long post about the 4 steps (or levels) of fame.
For everyone who is blocked too: try to work with the book “The Artist’s Way” from Julia Cameron! It’s a 3-month course and I used it in order to start with this blog half a year ago. I’ve taken it again to assist me, and in 10 days I’ll give a presentation about it. That’s another scary thing, and I will do it anyway 🙂